I’m Just like a dot separating two sentences, Swinging between the past and present of my life.
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Luv,
Manu
ONE WEEK LATER
The wet, green grass, still struggling for rebirth, crushed crisply beneath my feet. The grass in the park was wet, soaked to the soil by a week’s worth of rain. It had almost felt like a marsh. I sat on a bench looking down at it, at the ground that adsorbed so much rain. My mind, clamorously silent
The footsteps trudged through the swampy park. The steps stopped, just feet away from me. My eyes were still studying the moist ground. With a Swift Moment, I looked up
Silence clasped us for a moment. I was sitting on the bench fully addled. I just couldn’t believe that she was in front of me, smiling at me. It was after two years I saw her standing before me with the same smile that made all my worries vanish in a split of a second. Her brown eyes weren’t really looking at me. I thought she tried to avoid eye-contact with me.
“Is this a dream?” I asked myself pinching my hand
Her black hair was cropped short just up to her shoulders and her brown eyes were now staring at me. I thought she hasn’t changed a lot
I was bombarded myself with a jelly of questions.
Is that Janu who is standing before me? Did she come for me? What made her come to me again? Does she still love me? Still hate me? Did everyone else know that she was coming back except me since I’m always the last one to find out?
There were times when loneliness harassed me where ever I go. There were times when Silence engulfed me though I was in middle of the central plaza. There had always been a feckless debate between my heart and mind & mind winning over my broken heart consoling it in every possible way. There were times when I tried hard to forget her but left with much more pain.
“What has she done to me?” I asked myself. Everything seemed to be perfect and complete.
“Manu, How are you?
My eyes slightly widened with surprise. My Heart raced faster than I could count. I just couldn’t take my eyes of her. Once again, she swept me of my feet. I thought of hugging her and kissing her. I felt it would not make sense either way.
“Let me know if I had a second chance” I mumbled
“Come on. It was since a long time I had seen you, and you’re just sitting there, staring at me. Don’t I at least deserve a hug?” Her voice was light and teasing as she stretched out her slender arms, beckoning a hug.
I was a bit shocked. I wasn’t exactly sure if she was talking to me. I was dumbstruck. My lips went in silence. I was still wondering if this was real.
“Psh,” she replied as she smiled and she rushed over to me and threw her arms around my neck. I was taken aback by surprise so I stagger back a bit. My eyes jerked open in slight confusion, pupils contracted, body jolting with the initial thud of my heart. I gasped for breath. Her hug caught me by surprise as her hair brushed against my cheek. I could smell the perfume that made me intoxicating. I had this mild sensation running all through my body
I then looked into her brown eyes which reassured me that she would be mine forever. I gave her a smile. I couldn’t speak a word and I was totally lost in her warm hug. She rested her head on my chest and I closed my arms around her.
Silence took its charge again…
“I never want to let you go” I whispered in her ears.
“Then I never want to leave you” She said as she smiled.
I just was unable to control myself. Emotions started playing their game. All of a sudden I kissed her gently holding her as if I never want her to go away from me.
I broke the kiss. She’s still in my arms. I know she could hear my heart beating fast and rapid.
“Could I have this kiss forever” I whispered and all of a sudden she pulled me back in and we kissed again.
“I love you” I whispered again.
She smiled at me followed by another period of silence. This was the first time I felt silence as the best way of communication. She’s killing me slowly.
“Is this a dream” I mumbled
“I hope this shouldn’t be a dream” She said looking into my eyes
“Kiss me again” She whispered and we kissed again.
We sat on the bench. I rested my head on her shoulder. It felt so nice that even words could fall short if I start describing the moment.
“Why is your heart beating so fast?” she asked
“Darling, some special things make my heart beat faster and you are my special thing” I said.
“So, It’s over and I’m Back with you now” She said as she smiled.
“No, It’s not over until I hear you saying I Love You” I said looking into her eyes.
She again smiled and again she swept me of my feet…
Luv,
Manu
——THE END——–
PS : Thank You everyone who enjoyed my writing and encouraged me in completing this story. I now this would be an abrupt ending for my story and It hasn’t cleared some of your doubts. But, as of now I’m on my way writing a book on this which includes answers for all of your doubts. I ll let you know as soon as I finished it.
My Special thanks to Janu ( Though we broke up much earlier, and This is all the love I could give her which ultimately ended up with a DOT. Hope someday or the other she would read this blog),
My Dad (Who Supported me and for cultivating a thought of writing a book on this),
Brinda & Phani (My Friends who Helped me in every aspect of the story)
And last but not the least My Readers ( For all that they have done to make this part a success)
WRITER’S NOTE : As she watched the door closing behind his receding frame, Janu seized by an irresistible urge to run across the room, pull the door open and hug him and never let go. She slowly walked back to her window and stared at the moon. As the serene calmness of the moon washed over her and spread through every pore of her body she relaxed and let her thoughts wander about. No matter what she did these days her thoughts always seemed to be filled with fantasies and dreams of a new life with Manu by her side.
My eyes moved with lurch, my head followed his motion, until I found myself staring at the red rose in my hand and my mind drifted through layers of questions that are troubling me since I regained my senses. I let his thoughts to overtake me, completely spreading my awareness.
The love letters still sat under my pillow, keeping safe all the secrets of my past.
However, lucky me, I should thank my mother for giving me all those “love letters”. If not, I would have never known that Manu existed in my life before the accident. In spite of his unconditional attempts maybe I would never have believed him.
“Oh what would have happened then? I would have missed my lover boy”, I thought
Everything changed after I had bumped into those letters, there was a drastic change in my opinion. I started to wonder how those pieces of papers could make me drawn towards him. I don’t know if this is love or not and still I somehow continued to speak to him as I could not stay away from him.
“Did I really love him so much?” This conflict flooded my mind.
“Is this exactly my handwriting?” I was fully confused of everything as I wasn’t ready to accept the fact I internally started to like him.
“Oh am I always thinking about someone I’m not supposed to…? “
Nowadays he is the first person who pops in my mind when something either went wrong or when I am truly elated. From the time I started experiencing them, I never expressed all these to him. Still he comes to me daily with the optimistic opinion that someday I would open up to him.
“Oh Manu, how much you love me” a girl’s heart never easily allows to open up all these feelings in front of her guy. She always wants to check out how much more can a guy shower his love on her. I was just like any other girl.
I was sandwiched between my uncontrollable love I felt for him and the inability to express the same in front of him.
“Maybe during such similar indefinite periods of adrenaline rise I must have written “those love letters”, I thought.
I felt happy seeing him reading those letters the day before. I came to know that he missed me a lot when he kissed me.
“Manu, I’m still awake on that day”
I don’t know if he had understood all my feelings when I keep mum. Nevertheless I’m feeling guilty that I should have told those feelings. By now, I know it would have made memorable moments of our lives. Things done cannot be all the same undone.
From the time I came back to my senses after that re-birth of mine I spent several sleepless nights. I wondered what was that aspect of me that held Manu cling to me, to stay beside me when possibly everyone would have abandoned me apart from my parents though. The answers for these questions seemed impossible for me.
“Oh my dear Manu, I love you”.
I don’t want to lose you whatever happens. Though it was a few moments you spoke to me, I saw unconditional love towards me and I know even those moments I had been quiet unable to express out. Or did I ever tell him that I too love him the same way he does?
I love every simple thing you do to make me feel good. All the good and sad moments passed through my life but my Manu never left my hand and was there right next to me to experience every aspect of my life, all the circumstances changed but here is my Manu still beside me.
“Will this be forever in the same way? Oh I can’t think even of imagining otherwise”.
Had I remembered the past maybe I would have had many more collections of those sweet memories. I feel really pity to myself for my inability to re-collect those old days we must have spent together. I would still make a good attempt to get back to my-self at least for the times we must have spent together. I just wanted to know what all happened in the past
Want to speak to you Manu……
P.S : Thanks to my friend’s Brinda and Phani who helped me in making up this post
Saga Continues….
That was six in the morning. I was still inside my blanket that covered me from head to toe, feeling a bit slumberous. It was almost after two months, I had slept in peace. Finally, after an hour or so, the sun slowly peeped into my room with warm rays easily penetrating my thin blanket. I woke and stood by the window side and basked in the warm sunlight. That was a cool morning, sun was up the sky inviting me into another day. My mind wandered from one thought to the other and halted in my world of thoughts and memories that reflected the good old days with my brown-eyed girl.
Few Hours later….
I was in the surgery ward dressing the patients wound. Just then I got a blank call. I ignored it and continued with my work. After a few minutes there was a message that popped up my mobile screen.
“Hi Manu, I’m Janu. Well, I need to talk to u in person. When can we meet ?”
I was a bit shocked. All of a sudden I had a bouncing heart beat. I was fully out of control and lost in my world of thoughts that interpreted in as many ways as possible like a weird scientific theory of Stephen Hawkins
“Hi Janu, Will meet you tonight. Take care”
I totally forgot the patient and he is staring at me annoyed by the time I landed from my dream land. I completed my work, got a half-day permission from the head of the department and left the ward. My mind was fully preoccupied with the thought that I still couldn’t believe this is happening. I thought as I sighed. But, my thoughts were interrupted as I bumped into someone. Rubbing my Forehead, I opened my eyes to see what or who I bumped into and saw Sanju. Her face flushed.
Sanju is one of my three best friends I have made in my whole college life. I used to share all my happiness and sadness with her. She is a charming, gorgeous girl with a very cute smile and all the above a Great conversationalist and friendly.
‘Where have you been all these days Idiot ? You even didn’t reply to any of our friend’s messages. What the hell happened to you and what all are you thinking of you ? and all the blah blah
She bombarded me with a jelly of questions. On the way to the cafeteria I explained the incident that took place. She was shocked and asked me if I could Introduce Janu to her. I promised her that I would do that.
Later That Night…..
With a Rose in my back pocket and purest form of adrenaline gushing in every part of my body, I entered the room. It was dark and she was standing at the window. May be she has waited for me since the morning. I longed to talk with her, perhaps to tell her how my heart racing faster than I could count or how my intense breathing was making me dizzy. I wanted to tell her how scared I had been when I realized that it was her who met with an accident. But I couldn’t even speak a word. I cleared my throat to get her attention. She swiftly turned to my side. I took a step forward to look at her face. It was still very dark. I moved closer and closer until her fair skin shined through the blackness. My eyes glanced at the girl who once kissed me, Who once hugged me and who once promised me that she would never leave me.
The first thing I observed was her deep brown eyes, penetrating into the corners of my heart which made all my buried memories back to life . Then her lips, red in color, parting with a smile which reassured me that she would be mine forever. Her long shinning Black hair flowed down her shoulders. She wore a white salwar kameez which reflected the light of the moon. She is still as beautiful as she had always been. She just looked like an angel. Soon there was a feckless debate between my heart and mind. Heart asking me to kiss her and mind asking me to propose her. But, I know this is not the correct time for both the things.
The moment our eyes locked, I had completely forgotten everything. My mind became blank. My soul rested in peace. Unmerciful thoughts that haunted me for days committed suicide. The loneliness that harassed me for days had vanished in a split of a second. She stood a few inches in front of me with those brown eyes that still gazed through me, rather than at me. That stare froze me longer than I had expected. She just mesmerized me. A faint smile glossed her lips and her eager eyes awaited my arrival.
There was a long uninterrupted silence for about five minutes. At last she broke the ice between us.
“I know u love me. Then why the hell did you let me go?”
I was bit shocked by the question she asked me. I smiled at her as if i had expected the question.
“May be I shouldn’t have done that. I thought you would some day ask me why did u let me go. But, I’m convinced that we gave up too soon and now I had no answer for your question.”
I felt a bit suffocating standing in front of her. I could hardly take a breath. I don’t know the correct reason. I wanted to say her it’s just because of her. Shit man, I couldn’t say to her. My lips went in silence. I know that my words would fall short when she’s beside me. But, I never expected that I couldn’t even speak a word and the most important thing is that I’m nervous as if I’m attending my first MBBS exam.
Silence again took its charge. But this time I took the step…
“How are you feeling now ?” I asked. I thought this is the most weird question I had asked.
“Felling Better. But, Had a shooting pain in my shoulder few hours back” She said
Another episode of Silence hugged us. I just wanted to hug her and take her in my arms. Kiss her. But, just can’t do that.
“What the hell happened to me ?” I asked my self. I know she swept me of my feet. She changed me in a second. I just wanted to say all these to her. I’m dumbstruck by just seeing her. Then I remembered the red rose that I had bought for her. I wanted to give it to her. But, My hands didn’t even coöperate with my mind. I stood there as if I’m paralyzed.
“What had she done to me ?” I just couldn’t believe myself. I’m totally confused. I’m not the same anymore.
Just then I had a call to attend an emergency case in the surgery ward. I said that I would meet her tomorrow morning and bid her bye. I smiled and slowly moved towards the door in a single unbroken movement. I was about to leave and her soft voice stopped me. That was after a very long gap her lips spelled Manu. I was on cloud nine.
“Manu, I hope the rose is for me” she said smiling at me.
I was shocked at the same time felt very happy as if I had conquered the world.
“Yup Janu, this is for you. You look beautiful” I said and she thanked me and then I left the room. I thanked myself that at least I could tell her that she is beautiful.
Saga Continues….
That Night. (I still see the scenario clear and unbroken in front of my eyes)…..
That late December night seemed so very cool then. I can clearly say that the air was chilled. My skin got contracted and was covered with goose bumps. I thought of having a talk with Janu. I entered the room. It was dark and dim light of the moon entered the room piercing through the glass window. She’s sleeping and my eyes glanced at her face. She looked like a captured angel who lost her address to the heaven and got trapped in this domicile. I thought not to disturb her and made up my mind to leave the room. As I was about to leave the room, I saw some papers under her pillow. I took them carefully without disturbing the angel who is sleeping pleasantly.
I sensed those were some old letters which were not posted. I walked to the window side where the moon casted its light. I could read those unsent letters through the dim moonlight. The first was crinkled and i guess it was the oldest one. It is yellow and has been creased many times so that anyone could rip the folded parts in a perfect straight line.
some of them read
Dear Manu,
I love you. I just need you through out my life. Be my constant companion till my death. I want you to love me, kiss me and hug me. I miss you. But I guess that wont make you come back to me now…
Dear Manu,
I miss you darling. When will you come back to me? Did you forget this girl who always dreams to be with you always ?
Dear Manu,
It’s been a year since we got separated and still the memories play continuously in my mind . I neither can stop them nor hide them They won’t let me forget about you. What should i do? Just take me from here. I cannot imagine my life without you….
Dear Manu,
Do you miss me? Do you still love me? Do u ever think about me? Do you ever regret leaving me? Or are you simply happy? Do you write unsent letters to me, too? Probably not…
Dear Manu,
Happy birthday Darling. Do you remember that I was the first to wish you on your birthday. You were so excited and you kissed me. I’m missing those moments. I’m missing you…and now tell me if you are missing me because i miss you all the time.
I closed my eyes as I tried to stop the rolling tears. I opened my eyes and as my eyes turned toward the black-haired girl who was sleeping peacefully. Her face contented and lips red and unmoved. I was tempted and stroked her soft hair but, soon controlled myself.
I turned back to the letters and started to read rest of them.
“Did she love me this much?” I asked myself. But, soon replaced by the thought that her memory was lost. This thought has become an unbearable hell from which i cannot get over. The single thought haunted me unmercifully.
“Manu”
Astonished, I quickly turned back and I saw Janu’s parents standing in front of me staring at me sympathetically.
‘What?’ i asked them quietly not to disturb her sleep . Her father came to me and hugged me.
‘You are a good man. Take care of my daughter’ he whispered in my ears. I didn’t expect this. That was a classic reaction I thought. I turned back to the letters.
‘We gave those unsent letters to her. I think those letters can make her feel better’ her mother said and they both left the room.
I finally turned towards her, kept the letters back under the pillow where I found them. She was sleeping peacefully not even knowing that i was there . I leaned forward. I just couldn’t control myself. I kissed her forehead and quietly left her room….
Saga Continues….
Thoughts began to flip like pages. It’s terrible for me to digest the horrible truth. Memories started to fade in the lake of tears. I was now standing in the midst of isle of pain with my heart aching. I’m Becoming more helpless but something stood behind me that drove me with a strength to bear the naked truth and gave me the confidence which reassured myself with a delusion that she would be fine.
Doctor soon reappeared. I could sense his face filled with sympathy. My heart shattered. Despite all the reassurance I said to myself, I couldn’t help, I was wrong. Her memories were really lost forever.
See…The small word from the doctor taunted me. Doctor sighed as he gazed at me.
‘I’m Sorry Manu. She had lost all her memories.’
I couldn’t hold it anymore and i completely broke down as i fell on my knees and covered my face with my hands.I couldn’t just control my agony that stabbed my heart. Just then her mother came to me, wrapped her arm around my shoulder.
‘How could this happen?’ her mother cried
“I don’t know..” I responded as tears stained my face.
Janu.. she’ll never be the same anymore. I could never see her smiling at me the same way anymore. she’ll neither remember all those memories we’ve had together nor me. she’ll never love me anymore. With all her memories lost, she wouldn’t even recognize me and how is she supposed to care and appreciate and love me now? I thought quite selfishly.
Her mother hugged me tightly.”Manu” she said quietly as if she is about to say some thing
“Please stop this!” we both instantly turned up to see Janu. She’s frustrated.she glared at us with her confused, tired eyes. It was after many years I heard her voice. Her voice almost sounded almost beatific. This assuaged my pain a bit.
“I’m confused too. I too want to remember all the old memories. But I’m just like a blank open canvas, with no memories to fill it with! I’m trying to remember but just can’t” she said as she huffed. All of a sudden, her mother stood up and quickly hugged her tightly. she comforted her. It may be strange but for some uncertain reason, which i couldn’t help but feel that it must be me that was supposed to be comforting Janu, holding her in my arms, allowing her to rest on my shoulders.
“Manu” the doctor said quietly. “Let ‘s leave them.she feels somewhat better in her mother’s company.” I wanted to stay in the room, but I agreed with him and we both stepped out of the room.
“Excuse me sir” I said low and inarticulately, turning to the doctor. “Is there any way to that we can do to retrieve her memories back?” The medic sighed. “I’m sorry, but there isn’t. As a medico and a house surgeon you know this and you should know this. well some patients regain their memories. Some patients do regain a few memories and that’s all. Others regain pieces of it as time passes. As far as I know it was pretty uncertain how long it would take for them to regain their memories fully and completely. This may take a few weeks to years and for some may cost their whole life. In fact, most of them never regain their memories at all.”
I frowned and nodded. ” Hmm. Ya i know that. Alright, thank you”..I frowned glumly as I sighed.
“It’s a very horrible battle,” I said softly.
“And, I Know but I’m sorry for bothering you. I..I just wanted her to remember me.. everyone and everything again,” I said, biting my lower lip as I tried not to cry again.
Doctor nodded at me with a sad nod.
“Now go and attend your postings. Your already late for your todays work” he said quietly as he left me.
I bowed swiftly and left to the ward, keeping my eyes on the ground as I walked through the hallways.
I still couldn’t Believe. I thought, it would be better if it was a nightmare.
Saga Continues…..
I saw her family collected at the intensive care unit within hours. Tears rolled in her mother’s eyes as she stared at her. Her parents recognized me. They Know me pretty well and it was because of them we both separated painfully. They neither accepted me nor did they accept our love.
One Month Later….
Her fingers and eyebrows twitched a little. My eyes widened. I jumped out of my seat and ran to the doorway and hollered calling for a doctor, a medic, anyone to come and check her. Ah…she is awake…Janu opened her eyes…The same thought continued to race through my mind. Hearing me calling for a doctor, her parents and her brother rushed into the room. Within no time doctor and a nurse hustled into the room and checked her. I just stood there at the doorway and started musing about her. I could hear my heartbeat pounding loudly.
“Manu, That’s great Congrats, she’s out of danger,” the Doctor cheered.
Tears clouded my eyes as I quickly ran to her bed and held her hand tightly as her tired brown eyes slowly traveled to me as I frantically cried with joy and whispered, “..oh, Janu…you..stupid..you freaking Stupid..” I missed her a lot. My emotions were totally out of my control. I couldn’t control my feeling toward her and in spite of the fact that her parents were there, I kissed on her hand and I continued to whisper idiotic nonsense at her, and I continued to say her name over and over, as she blankly gazed at me.
I waited for her to smile at me, reassure me, and say raspingly, “Stop that out, Manu.. I’m fine da.” But she didn’t. She gazed at me with blank, glossed eyes.
“Hey Janu, you fine na?” I finally questioned unable to control my excitement, my eyes frantically staring at her face. She finally Spoke, at which I got excited at, thinking that she’d finally say something to me. Finally crack a smile at me, and reassure me.
“Who.. are you?” she asked, instead.
“Why cant u be possibly serious” I thought as the happiness drained from my face.
The doctor pushed, passed me as he quickly turned to Janu, checking over her for a moment. He then turned back to me as he frowned and said, “I don’t know what’s going on.. but I suggest a CAT scan of her head.. Hopefully, she still has a few memories left to clasp. I nodded numbly as I continued to stare at Janu, my heart thumping loudly.
Please.. please crack a smile and say, just kidding! Please.. please..
But she didn’t. She just stared back at me with her wide brown eyes, confused and blank. She couldn’t at least identify her family. I was fully dumb folded as I saw her mother cried. Tears ran down my cheeks as I saw her entering for a CAT SCAN. I couldn’t believe but, it’s a horrible truth.
Saga Continues….
The referee’s whistle came and we had the ball. We were pushed back and were desperately defending furious attack by our seniors. Thanks to some fantastic saves, we were still in it. After around twenty minutes we had our first aggressive attack. A good dribbling by my friend down the court towards the goalie. While in the penalty box, he passed the ball to me. I was bolting up the field when the number nine from the other team tackled me. He missed the ball and gored my leg with his boot and Suddenly I felt a shooting pain in my ankle and I was awarded with a penalty. I now had the responsibility to put the ball in the back of the net from the penalty spot which is around twelve yards away from the goal post. I stepped over the ball and my heart rate was pounding up. I chose the right corner and kicked the ball. To my abashment, it totally and completely missed the goal. I knew I had let my team down. Soon after five minutes it was half time.
Coach was furious. “What are you Manu, You totally missed out the penalty. what the hell happened to you?”
I stood in absolute silence. I was not in a mood to answer his questions. All the second half I sat on the bench, head bowed.
I was fully annoyed of everything. I thought I need a break, I just thought of absconding this place and go somewhere far away leaving all my bad memories. It’s too agonizing for me . I may be happy and contented but deep in my heart, I am Bawling. I just wished to consort her till the end. I really had no more compunction, as I did my very best in everything to keep up my relation. It’s just that fate and destiny that had halted my relationship with a dot. Memories of her hunted me every second. They started to roam across my mind evoking immense pain. Unable to lock all her memories in my heart, I just tried to bury it in the sands of past ……….
Suddenly the referee blew his last whistle and that’s it the game ended in a draw. Everyone started to leave the ground.I was still sitting on the bench rewinding my memories. I was interrupted by the drum beats of the thunders and all of a sudden flashing silver roots emerged from blackened background. It was around seven in the evening and It started to rain heavily.I was fully wet and thinking of her…, I slowly walked towards my room. Thoughts began to tighten my mind. All the way, The trees waved their wings trying to abate my agony with their nippy breeze. This assuaged my pain a bit.
I was posted in the causality for a night duty. Unable to concentrate on the normal work, Soon after I reached the causality I sat in the rest room . I was alone in the room. There was a dim light which casted my shadow on the wall. I felt my heart trapped in between emotions. Her memories are driving me crazy and soon I dozed off. Some one knocked the door and It was around twelve o clock. I opened the door. I was intimated by a nurse that there was a road traffic accident and I need to attend the emergency.
It was Janu on the bed and I was shocked and speechless. Tears rolled down my eyes. I never expected such a situation. She lay unrecognizable, with eyes rolled up and blood all over her face. She was senseless and ventilator dependent. I was still in a shock. My hands trembled as I started to clean the blood over her face. I ran my fingers through her silky, blood coated hair. I kissed on her forehead. Soon one of the senior doctor examined her. she was subjected to few medications. My voice doddered as I ordered the nurse for an immediate x-ray . “I love you, Janu..” I hissed as I finally broke down completely and tightened my grip on her hand. My heart throbbed seeing her on the bed. I just couldn’t hold my emotions and walked out of the causality….
Saga Continues…..
I’m Just like a dot separating two sentences, Swinging between the past and present of my life. It had been two years since she left me heart-broken and now memories that slept deep and calm in the dungeons of my heart raised after i had seen her in the central plaza. I had a bouncing heartbeat. She swept me of my feet again.
The day she left me alone in the road of loneliness, I walked thinking of her with hopes and thoughts that just pricked my heart every time. Silence hugged me through out my journey. Loneliness harassed me every time I think of her. I dared breaking the virginity of loneliness that hooked me into the deep-sea of stinging emotions. Time is the only thing that healed me. It had given me the best medication I have ever known as a medical student.
I sat by the shore. Memories started squeezing my heart. I still love her deep like the sea. She stabbed my heart all the way in the central plaza. It was around eleven o clock and I was still thinking of her resting on the shore. There was no one around me and the darkness clasped the shore. Moon adorned the neck of the darkness casting its beauty. Stars are the only spectators for my sadness. I could hear only the soothing music of the waves that made me bit relaxing.
She forgot to take my memories with her that still lie in my mind, untouched for years. She is still in my heart. My heart and mind soon started feckless debate as if they were two great enemies, one supporting her thoughts and the other opposing her thoughts. By the time I tried to find out who won the debate, I just dozed off.
As i opened the eyes, sun peeped into my eyes as if he is searching for some lost object in a dark room. It was already seven. I felt something crawling inside my shirt and i woke up suddenly as if I had a nightmare. I grabbed the insect in my hand and it pricked me and jumped of it.
‘It’s a painful morning’ I thought.
I stood up stretching my arms, I found myself embedded with sand grains all over my clothes. I dusted them off and headed towards my bike which shined as it bathed in the rays showered by the sun. That was Sunday. We had a football match with seniors in our college.
Saga Continues…..
